Who Am I?

Yeah, I know.  I'll try to smarten up and get better at this again.  'Nuff said.

This will be a quick thought, but it pricked my heart none-the-less when it came to mind.

I just listened to a song from a band that I am unfamiliar with on a friend's facebook wall and one of the lines in the song said this: "If I could be anything at all, let me be the whore at your feet."  I have to admit that something resonated in me when I heard and read that line.  That is where the title of this post came from actually. 

Let me explain.  Of course this line speaks of the woman who threw herself at Christ's feet and poured an expensive perfume over his feet.  This of course made the "religious" people indignant as most things do that are out of their comfort zone or traditions.  Judas actually said to Jesus, "that was worth a years wages and we could have sold it to give to the poor."  This statement was a touch ironic I'd say since the verse continues on to say that Judas did not give to the poor as he tended to steal from the diciples anyway as he was in charge of their money. (John 12:3-6)  This all takes me back to the statement from the song I heard tonight and the question that it left me with.

Who Am I?
Am I the religous folk who is more concerned with the spilled perfume?  I can picture someone saying, "Oh great, who's going clean this mess up?"  And Judas, "We could have given that money to the poor."  Don't we like to say the right things sometimes to sound righteous and spiritual? And the fact that this unsavory woman is touching Jesus' feet?  How could he let her do that?  Doesn't He know who she is, what her story is and what she's done?  Surely he doesn't or he wouldn't let her do this to his feet.  What will people say?  This is out of the ordinary and I'm just not sure I'm comfortable with this.  I'm sure there were many statements like this, but before I am too hard on those religious folks I must check my heart as well regarding this "spirit of religion".  Often times I can feel myself getting uncomfortable when things don't seem as they should be as I've made the expectations in my little box.  How dare someone speak out while the preacher's preaching?  I can't believe that song said "whore" and so on and so on and so on.  Is this who I am?

Or...  Am I the "whore at Jesus feet?"  Am I the person who wants nothing more than to just be at my Savior's feet, in His presence and basking in his company with no expectations or performance necessary?  Am I the person who desires to create a sweet aroma for my King while I worship Him?  Am I the person who recognizes my shortcomings, yet still accepts that He loves me no matter what and that I can come in his presence as I am, in my sin with no reservations. 

Who Am I?  One disturbing fact in all of this was when I read that statement my initial thought was, "I can't believe they used that word." 

God save me from my religious attitude, my pious persona and my judgmental leadings.  Make me a person who adores you so much that I will come to you, in humility, in simplicity, with a grateful heart for who you are, what you've done and what you want to do in my life.  May You increase and I decrease in my life.  May I be "the whore at Your feet."