It seems the theme "de jour" for me as of late is process and the test dummy for this theme is yours truly. As I have been walking this beautiful thing called life and stepping into some new adventures I've realized how easy it is too fool myself into believing that I've got it together when the reality is that I am still a lump of clay being molded just like every other human being sucking air in their lungs.
This is not a topic that is exclusive to one area in my life, but seems to be something that I struggle with as a whole. I go along being a nice guy and convince myself the world is a better place because of me. I can do this in my walk with God and the titles I give myself that way. I can do it as a dad or a husband and convince myself that my family is blessed to have me and yet my actions show that Scottie is still very much a "Scottie centric" individual.
Yet in all of this God reminds me that I am to daily seek Him for wisdom and learning. I have to believe that with that comes growth. Oh goodness, I hope that with that comes growth. LOL.
I am NOT content with being the picture boy for insanity. (You know? Doing the same thing over and over and expecting a different result?)
As much as I have great disdain for my wife and step daughters being over an hour away from me during the week until June, I can say that perhaps there is a purpose in it. Perhaps God needed some extra time to work this process in me and I needed some one on one teaching without the distraction of the beautiful ladies of my life. It's all process and the question is, "Am I willing to learn? Am I willing to be changed?"
In all areas in life I need wisdom to change, grow and be molded into the image of my Savior. To follow Jesus as His disciple means that ultimately I am going to become more like Him. This gives me hope. Though I think I can be a nice guy I get what Paul was saying about, "doing what he does not want to do and not doing what he wants to do." This tends to be my pattern as well. I do stuff, speak hastily or get into situations that make me think, "uh oh, how did I get in this mess???"
So what's the neat and tidy conclusion for this blog post? Um? I'm not sure, but I do know this... I am grateful for the love of my Savior and the patience and love of my friends and family as I know I am not an easy person to be around, talk to or love at times. Grateful might be an understatement. I might not be so patient with ole Scottie boy. LOL.
My blog has been called "Clay Sharpening Clay" since day one and it's because I honestly don't feel strong enough most days to be called iron. So here's my challenge and I will say that since I am putting it on the interweb for all to see, those of you who know, love and support me have the right to call me on this and see how moldable I am being during my process called life.
My life's agenda is very simple and I want to continue to grow, learn and become more like Christ so that I may more fully achieve these goals:
1) Love/Serve God
2) Love/Serve my wife/kid/step kids
3) Love/Serve my community (local/globally)
Lord help me to be more teachable, more loving and more like you so that those around may be more blessed by You in me...
Love y'all,
Blessings!!!
